Dream Creator

Dream Creator
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Just a small town Canadian dreamer... This started as the diary of a young woman's experience with breast cancer and continues 5 years later as the diary of a woman, like many other, who has decided to take her lemons and make lemonade. **If reading this blog for the purpose of learning about my breast cancer experience, PLEASE START AT THE OLDEST POST (October 2009) AND WORK YOUR WAY FORWARD**

Monday, June 13, 2011

How Now?

Reading back on my old posts, I can't believe all of the transformations I have taken on over the last year.
I have worn many shoes throughout my cancer journey.
I became a fighter.
Then I was a health nut.
Then I was an advocate.
Then a spiritual master.
So on and so on.

So where am I now?

Well, today I slept in a little, because I know my body likes sleep and I try to feed it what it likes. When I woke up, I went into work after drinking a green tea (used to be coffee, then I went herbal tea and now I am back to green).
Sometimes I remember my vitamin D and B, and sometimes I don't.
I try to eat breakfast, but sometimes I only have time to juice something, or gobble down a yogurt and granola.
At work I booked in a girl who was just diagnosed with a similar breast cancer as I had. I gave her a free pre-chemo-fall-out haircut and chatted with her.
I looked her in the eye and felt the pain.
I was speechless, but I tried to let her know I care and I am here for her.
After that, I sold a wig to a woman with alopecia.
After that, I booked in another cancer collegue for a wig trim.
Many people walked-in for appointments today and though I wanted to squeeze them in every little crack of time I had, I remembered my husband's voice "Don't over work Megan, learn balance and learn to say no. Be good to your body and mind. It's ok to take it easy."
And so I booked in 2 of them at the end of my day and said no to the rest.
I took a lunch break today, but I don't always I must admit. ( i am working on it)
I came home and had a decent meal. I thanked god sliently for the great day I had and for helping me find my lost item, I ahd been looking for. I drank lots of water. I relaxed on the couch. I had a bag of microwave kettle corn (oops). And now I blog.
So the bottom line?
Well, I am wearing none of the shoes I wore last year.
I am wearing a new pair of shoes...a combination of all of them, and sometimes I wear the shoes I had PRE-cancer.
I am not perfect, and though I may try to be from time to time, I realize I am happiest with balance.
Sometimes I faulter, and though I know what IS best for my health, I also know I am human.
And I like to feel human.